Today is a not a good, Jessie*** called Marco and was telling him all kinds of
things about me saying that he feels guilty for what happened between all of us I know he's trying to tell Mark something im like to the point were im like lets just get it out in the open allready, I just wish they would have never provoked me or were the way they are but I could have never changed that and the way i am too im stupid i should have never let happen what did between me and Teresa***

I AM TOTALLY OBSSESSED THERE ARE THINGS GOING ON IN MY MIND I CAN'T GET RID OF, I DREAM ABOUT IT, I AM CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT IT, HAVING DREAMS ABOUT IT..WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? I CANT EVEN CONCENTRATE ANYMORE..ITS CRAZY I CNAT EXPLAIN WHAT IT IS...BUT I AM GOING INSANE!!! I AM SO BAD! I HATE KNOWING THAT ITS BAD, BUT STILL WANTING TO DO IT. I FEEL SO EVIL! WHAT IF I GO TO HELL, I SWEAR I HAD THIS DREAM YESTURDAY NIGHT THAT THE DEVIL CAME TO TAKE MY SOUL AWAY, AND I ENDED UP GOING TO HELL! ITS LIKE MY SUBCONSIOUS IS TELLING ME ITS WRONG BUT I CANT STOP. IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH! WHEN I LOOKED UP ON THE COMPUTER IN THE DREAM DICTIONARY IT SAID THE EXACT THING WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH....I DONT KNOW IF GOD WILL EVER FORGIVE ME.......