Isnt he cute! man its been a while since ive written anything for my few readers lets see if I can catch you up on my boring life, well I just got back from vacation me and my honey decided to take a week off for our 2 year anniversary, wow! I cant believe it I keep thinking we got married last year, its been cool although married life is hard! but when your in love you know everythings gonna be ok. Since I dont like to fly we ended up going to LA again which is cool I finally got my Indian furniture I know ive been obsessed with getting the right furniture for my room, but my house is the only thing that I have thats worth anything and I like to make it reflect a part of me. We had fun went shopping hung out with my friend and his man, its a trip how long weve been friends all of us Mark, Beto, Indgrid its cool how weve all grown up together and still till this day still remain friends after all the times weve fought and hated eachother I still love them now a days its hard to keep friends that long, I love them, I really do there like the gay brothers ive never had, and hopefully we'll stay friends forever. Well coincedentaly Marks mom and family were going to San Diego too so they had plans allready to go to some casino so we tagged along it was cool we went swimming at night, got in the hacuzzi, and of course gambled a little I never win its such a conspiracy I swear like im really gonna get 20 each time whatever i hate casinos the house always wins! We also went to TJ. that was not so cool I cant go to places like that I get so emotional I wanna help everyone, I swear we were walking down the street I see these 2 little kids dirty alone, and I start to cry, I get so emotional I feel so bad for them and we complain the things we dont have, were so fortunate we just dont know! Friday night we went to San Fransisco it was cool its the 3rd time that we went and didnt get anything, were like how did that dorky ass dude get shit and we didnt? I need a new hook up! but it was cool, Sat. we went to Faces I got drunk made a fool of myself like usual but it was all worth it, I like making people feel good about themselves when im drunk, like ill tell them there beautiful i was telling these 2 guys and they were getting all happy it was pretty funny.I had fun i think that was the most fun ive ever had oh chata and her man went to that was funny! Boy did I have the biggest hang over the next day that sucked I felt bad cuz it ws Fathers day and all but I was too sick to go anywhere.over all it was cool and now im back at work with the same shit agian oh well thats life I guess! so until next time seeya!

So I didnt get to sleep that great last night, and when I finally did I had this nghtmare about these vampires trying to get me. I actually havent slept good in a couple of days sometimes ill be ok and sometimes ill toss and turn all night I actually slept all the way through the other day, woke up at 5 in the morning thats very rare of me. I guess im paranoid i dont know why I do these things to myslef but ill watch like scary movies and laugh at Mark for being a wuss and than ill be all paranoid he gets mad at me im like a moth to a bug light you know its bad but you do it anyways. Well Mark was gone last night so I worked on my scrap book when hes gone is the only time I can do things even though I hate being by myself I wish I could be a little more indepandent im such a scardy cat! Well not much going on were taking off next week for our Anniversary I cant wait we dont have any plans just yet were thinking on going to San Diego, maybe LA., TJ. go by my cabinet for sure this time, I keep thinking we barely got married last year time goes by so fast we were actually 6 years on May 21 it doesnt feel that long, feels like yesturday we used to park behind the school and make out haha fun times! I love him just as much I did in the begining if not more, I guess there is someone out there for everyone, I never thought id find that person but love comes in strange ways, who wouldve thought wed be married crazy huh? Oh yeah I forgot to mention I got another letter from my stalker, hes this guy whos been writing me ever since we moved into our house 2 years ago I have no idea who he is he used to be in this gang my ex used to be in but I dont remember him, hes now in some mental institution because he got in some train accident or something, he obviously knows who I am he used to write me all the time talking to me like we were together in his crazy mind. Mark had to call the place and talk to them and hes not supposed to write me and he didnt for a long time until I got another letter from him yesturday I cant even understand it some bull shit about him wanting to be with me after he gets out I dont know, yeh I get scared cuz he knows were I live and all but hes supposingly not getting out for a long time, thats what they said, so if one day they find me dead his name is Elias, no im being dumb! anyways time for lunch peace out!....

4:50 Almost time to go home I thought id just write a little before i go home, well I was just sitting here listening to my friends talk and all of a sudden I got the overwhelming feeling like I wa gonna pass out a scary De ja vu, thats usually happens when im gonna pass out I got freaked out I didnt know what to do I just sat here breathing sweatin like crazy, I dont know whats happening to me, its problay all the red bull I drink my supervisor would tell me that. But I thank God didnt im ok I dont know what it is but I cant get myself to go to the doctor they'll just tell me the sam ebull shit like last time, but im ok for now, well ive been having these strange feelings about a friend of mine I wont say who, but I had this wierd dream the other day that this person raped me so ever since than Ive been totally creeped out by them, I dont wanna hang out with this person or even talk to them, and I was forcefully talking to this person earlier and this person knows my husband is gonna be gone tonight so they asked me (there calling me as i speak im not answering yikes!) if i wanted to hang out with him, I had to think of something and say I was buisy, but I dont know why im feeling creeped out by this person, wierd vibes!!! I dont know maybe im just trippin. Ok well anyways I had a cool weekend we hung out with the cousins on friday night weve been doing a sex and the city fridays well do the last disk this friday and its gonna be wierd because the last episode is about a gay guy who gets married, and everyone knows hes gay, hmmm well im gonna be on vacation next week so im trying to get things finished up here, I cannot wait I dont even know what were gonna do its our 2 year anniversay next Monday June 9 wow! maybe we'll go to LA or San Diego, TJ i dont know all I know is I need a vacation!!!!