I just called into my supervisor’s office because someone here in my office is a fucken ratta! I don’t understand why people need to snitch or rag on other people just to make themselves look better, and supposingly these people are supposed to be my friends? I would never ever!, snitch on someone I never have and never would! But that’s just me if you’re my friend im not going to go behind your back and stab you a thousand times I just don’t understand it, im nice to everyone and people always fuck me! Why??? It just bugs me that I think theyre my friends and there not! So my supervisor and me are cool he doesn’t really trip but because nurse Ratchet has been coming around spying on us he has to do it he’s like I really don’t care but I have to do it, and he told me that its someone who I think is my friend. What the fuck?!! I swear fuck all these people so Im learning my lesson I will not hang out with these people invite them to any of my parties anymore God only knows what shit they talk behind my back! So sorry fellas! Its like that now! So I speak from experience Watch your back! And the ones you think are your friends really aren’t!

One more week and a half to go till Thanksgiving I cant wait I was craving turkey sandwiches the other day with lots of mayonnaise and cheese yummy! Well things are going ok Marks a lot better no more Quazimoto, I know its not funny but we just play like that. Anyways I had a cool weekend we hadnt been out in a while so it was my bro-in laws birthday so we went to San Fran and kicked it with him that was cool we went to dinner and than drinking a little bit, I was telling the homo boys there futures they thought I was psychic haha. I had fun I miss San Fran, we used to go there all the time. I swear I feel deprived from the outside world I swear we havnt really been doing nothing we actually are broke because Marks been out of work for a while I guess thats why I havnt done anything, no money, thank God grandma gave us some money when they sold there lot, its wierd everytime we get extra money its like something happens we never just have EXTRA money, is that how it is for everyone or am I just fucked? Shit I cant believe Christmas is coming up and New Years, oh lord im getting old what am I going to do with my self am I really going to be here for the rest of my life well when the New year comes in ill think about it than, right now just wanna get through the day and think about those turkey sandwiches.
so until something interesting happens ill be seeying ya later...

gosh dam i wear im so frustarted at work all week my stupid computer has been messing up i can catch up because of it and all my shit was lost its so irritating its been one of those weeks i guess so everythings been ok i guess besides the stress at work Marks lookin alot better actually normal he'll be going back to work next week thank god! Christmas is coming up my tags are due shit were gonna be screwed for a while i dont know sometimes life is, sometimes life is easy but fuck for me i swear im mustve been born under a fucken fucked up ass star i never have good luck! what is up with that? when things seem to be going good theres always something that has to fuck it all up does this happen to everyone or is it just me? i dont get it. Well anyways i had this wierd dream yesturday, it was about augies wife that passed away, i dreamt that i was with her Mark and Augie were there we were taking nd she was telling me about how she was unhappy and she wanted to die and how she was happier now, and if she wouldnt have died in that car accident that she was going to commit suicide. It was kinds scary as if she was really talking to me and whats wierd is I never even met this girl she was never around or anything i never even seen her but I remember what she looked like and everything. Weird well I forgot to tell my bro-in law HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MAN I HOPE YOUR HAVING A BETTER DAY THAN I AM! anyways I better get back to work before mrs Ratchet comes so until than ..........

Last night our insurance agent came over, we had to update our information and put more money into our life insurance because you never know what’s going to happen to eighther one of us in the future, so it got me thinking about getting older someday starting a family of our own, and I never ever thought id say this but I think I actually might be ready to settle down well not just yet but soon, I know it sounds crazy coming from me, I thought id never be ready but I could actually see it now, its crazy! And now Marks like “I don’t want one yet”. It’s weird. Well this morning I woke up with a wrinkle around my eye talking about retirement and shit all last night oh my god! I’m getting old, I swear my fucken back is starting to hurt, my neck everything im getting tired early what is wrong with me? I know I still have a few more partying years left in me, I think its Stockton making me this way lazy! So anyways Halloween sucked we had to go to Manuel’s party it was all right I talk to everyone and get a long with them and all but his young cousins we just don’t click there into different things than we are me and mark are about partying all night with dance music there into fubu music and that’s not out scene really so we just don’t click u-know I think they don’t like me if you ask me, but I don’t really care. I wanted to go to san Fran and mark was like ok but we never ended up going so I was like please take me home and that was our night, sucky huh! Well we haven’t been doing much lately we want to buy another house actually soon since the market is down I don’t want to wait too long, we’ve been looking a little bit just to see, I guess well see how it goes.-