Well I just got back from Las Vegas after all the drama that has been happening around here I so needed to get away, the stupid pictures from the b party got out and into the wrong hands and it was just drama I know it wasn't my fault but I felt responsible for everything that happened I wish I wouldn't had thrown that stupid party, my friends got written up and Rosa got fired well it was other things that she had done too. But it was just too much and after all that she wasn't even thankful for shit that I did, ANYWAYS I was kinda feeling like I didn't want to go at first I was like oh god were gone have to hang out with them and I have to hear her bitchin but actually we didn't even hang out at all, the only time we spent together was just the day of the wedding and that was it actually all of us pretty much dud our own thing, Even Jorge and them and it was cool we got to do our own thing it was like we were on the vacation by ourselves. But we had fun me and mark partied like crazy I swear when we got back I couldn't even get back into reality I felt like I was still out of it. Well nobody wanted to do anything they sucked I swear they didn't wanna drink or anything I don't know why they were trying to be all innocent, I was like I don't care im in Vegas fuck it im gonna have fun and we did, We went partying on Friday and it was a different experience ive never tried it to hip hop at first it was kinda sorry but it was fun , everybody was on it, it was wierd and than it was funny because there were these 2 gay guys cute might I add trying to hit on my man, they were all trying to dance with him I was like hey. It was funny I swear there were nothing but guys no girls, and they were cute too. but oh well after we just went club hopping to Hard rock, and then some club called Drais it was cool they were playing good music but it was to bright in there so by that time my high was going down, so we were getting tired and we headed back to the hotel about 5, the day of the wedding we were running late and we were tired as hell it went by fast 15 minutes, then the reception it was cool we were supposed to all go out but again noone wanted to do shit, I couldnt even get them to drink I was like fuck it im gona go sit at the 5cent slots and pretend im playing and get some free drinks and we did, so we were getting drunk and after a while I was like seeya losers, they wanted to go back to the hotel allready, so we left and walked around it was cool. Well get this it was Playboys 50 anniversary and they were having like this big party all weekend so Friday we went to go check it out one of the playmates were selling her paintings and the only way to get into the party was to buy a pix or be vip so while I was pretending to buy one distracting the guy pretending I was rich, it was funny, Mark stole 2 tickets so we were being crazy. So the party was on saturday and we totally forgot about it I was so frusrtated with trying to get them to do something we forgot on sunday I remembered man we could have partied w/ Hugh Hefner Kid Rock was there a bunch of people so that sucked I was so mad at myself I did get to meet some of the playmates and get signatures that was cool, they were kinda plain they werent like really beutiful or anything. Man I wouldve died if I would have met Hugh Hefner I love him. So over all we had fun by ourselves next time I go there I have to make sure and go with people that like to party no more boring people. I don't know I swear I want to move so bad I hate it here so bad I come back to work and im like fuck same thing over again I don't know me and Mark I think are different from other couples we have to much life in us still I don't think we belong here I know were meant for bigger and better things, we want to do things w/ our life I do I hate it here so much I want to move but im scared and I know Mark would want too. i don't know theres just too much holding me back. What do I do? live my life for me or for others? This was strange we were walking down the strip late one night and this was after noone wanted to do anything I was upset and this lady comes out of nowhere and she comes up to me out of everybody, and sez can I give you a free reading and I was like well I don't have any money, she was like its ok and she told me that I look too much into the bad side of things to see the good things in life it was wierd it was like God reached down and talked to me I don't know it was wierd. So anyways I had fun and now im back here agian things are supposed to change but we'll see hopefully they will for the better im getting tired of the same bull stuff! haha well ok I have so much shit to do so back to work I go....

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Ok so I swear to fucken god, I am too fucken nice I am tired of being misses nice girl people dont fucken appreciate shit so ok I had that party on saturday and now theres big drama first of all, monday morning you know who and I wont mention any names because who the fuck knows who might read this shit well monday she walks in staright up is dogging everyone and yes me too "I knew I shouldnt have went, I told you not to throw it" blah blah ok not a thank you or shit! I swear everybody told me im not going for her because first of all noone likes her ass, she aint got no friends accept me and a few others, they told me im going for you. So we had fun I know she had fun it says it in the pix all over her face! I swear she was telling me all these stories about how she dont talk to her family they dont get along and im like now no fucken wonder she is straight up mean! and rude poor Karla she got it the worst she kept yelling at her. So she brought the pix to work so fucken what! the people that were there saw them haha they were funny and then she started tripping because people saw them ands now theres big drama "oh im gonna sue this agency! and if I wanted to I could sue karla too blah blah chill the fuck out! you should be happy we even did shit for you, but no so now I gotta go and hang out with these fools in Vegas for the weekend I dont even wanna go I dont know im just too dam nice I take it and dont say anything she like fucken Cybil nice to me one minute trippin the next I dont know what to do. Oh and than others better not even be given me shit I dont even wanna go there not trippin on monday and now trippin off me its not my fault I didnt fucken hold a gun to your head!

So I had this big bachellorette party at my house this Saturday we had so much fun I was hella fucked up I swear I don't even remember some of the shit that happened, we were looking at the pictures and Im like what? when did that happen? I did that? but oh well so everybody's like Yeh we had hella fun your house is bad, that was the funnest party ive been to blah blah so I do something nice for somebody and they dont appreciate shit! Everybody had fun accept the bride to be, yes she was trippin, and this is my friend ok let me tell you a little bit about her, she is very mean obnoxious, rude, straight out ghetto, and why do I hang w/ her I dont know? im just too nice I like her, and ive learned to ignore her but alot of people dont like her, and they told me im only going because of you, not her! So I wasnt even gonna throw it, but I did out of the kindness of my heart because she is paying for our hotel room in Vegas and all so I figuered i'll just throw her a surprise party who wouldnt like oneright! So a few people got a hold of the pictures and you know me I dont care! everybody knows how I am, but she straight out started tripping, "Oh I knew this was gonna happen I knew I shouldnt have went"! blah blah Joe's mad at you and im like girl wait a minute you better be greatful for what I did for you I went through alot, but shes not! I need to quit being so dam nice. Oh fucken well we all had fun! That is exactly what I needed I swear ive been stressing out at work and I needed to have fun. So were going to Vegas wed. were gonna take our own car we were gonna drive up with Maria and Joe but now im like na I think i'll take my own car, theres just people that you cant do certain things w/ you know. oh well its gonna be my vacation too so Im going to do what I want to do on my vacation time, and if they dont like it oh mutha fucken well. Me and Mark got plans allready to do stuff shhh! and if they dont like it oh well. Ok im getting mad I better quit. Whatever. Sunday I had the worst hangover ever I stayed home while everybody went to Rene's for his birthday. Ok time to go home by myself, Marks in LA today I hate when he leaves.

Its me again, I know I just have so much to say, so many thoughts in my crazy head, Well remember the guy I was talking about before the homeless man on my way home from work well he hasnt been there for the past few days, its wierd because I know he probabley thinks noone in this world cares about him and he probabley doesnt have the slighteset clue anyone even thinks about him or even cares about him, but I do in a wierd way, I just hope someone cares the same way about me. Like do you ever wonder who would go to your funeral if you were to die? Does anyone really care in this world? maybe thats why everything is so fucked up, because nobody gives fuck about anything! And its sad but sometimes I know I dont. I dont care if I call back these welfare clients or not. Thats bad, and I know I need to care more, but I dont.
So anyways since we are only taking half hour lunches from now on I cant really go down grandmas too much that sucks because that was my time to visit them and catch up on things u know. So we were there the other day and they finally sold some lot that theyve had in Reno like forever, there selling it for 40g and im glad I told them that we should go on vacation and enjoy things now that they have money. Well I hate admitting to myself that one day they wont be here anymore. I love them to death I would do anything for them, everyone else is always saying oh yeh well go visit them and they never do. And it makes me so mad that noone cares I would give my life for them and it hurts so bad to know that they arent going to live forever, I swear id rather go before them, just so I dont have to deal with being gone. I get so scared, like I was watching spiderman the other day and his uncle dies and im just crying my eyes out and Marks like whats wrong? but even now just thinking about makes me want to cry, They raised me and to me they are my parents, I cant imagine life without them, and for the very first time ever my grandpa told me he was proud of me. He has never told me that. I was so happy, everything Ive done was for them. That makes me happy now. Well on another note, today hasnt been good feeling shitty! havent started yet getting scared God I hope thats not why im feeling crappy......

So everyday on my way home I see the same man sitting on a bench in front of the library, I think he must be homeless because he always has a bunch of bags in his hands and he's real dirty looking, so on my way home yesturday I thought to myself, god I bitch about everything all the time my job, the things I dont have and I probabley have so much more than he does, im happy with the things I got I really am, I never thought id actually make it this far in life, as fucked up as I used to be! and why do people have to hate on you when you try to make something out of yourself, saying you think your better than everybody else! I never think im better than anybody else, if people really new me they would know that, I am the most self contious person ever. I hate everything about myself, The way I look, act, am. But this poor man he probabley wishes he had the things I have and all we do is bitch about it I need to look into myself more, and be happy with what I have people take things for granted all the time, I just dont understand people that are so materialistic, oh I gotta have Tommy Hillfiger, and Guess and Abercrombie and Fitch, and I have to shop at Macy's. I dont get it, does material wealth make us who we are? cuz if it did I'd be k-mart. Shit yeh I admit it I shop at K-Mart who cares so I buy 3 for one panties. And buy my shoes at the flea market yeh so. I dont know we live in America and we have so many rights and so many privilages, but yet we still dont get it. I suppose Im gonna have to get used to being were I am right now, and accept that I will (unforetuntely) never be famous, and as much as it hurts, i'll live. All I want out of this life is make a difference I dont know how, when, or where but if I die tommarrow knowing that I made a difference in at leaste on persons life id die a happy person. So until than I guess i'll just be.........

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New Rules For Employment

SICKNESS AND RELATED LEAVE: We will no longer accept a doctor statement as proof of sickness. If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

SURGERY: Operations are now banned. As long as you are an employee here, you need all your organs. You should not consider removing anything. We hired you intact. To have something removed constitutes a breach of employment.

BEREAVEMENT LEAVE: This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead friends, Relatives or coworkers. Every effort should be made to have non-employees attend to the arrangements. In rare cases, where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early, provided your share of the work is done enough.

YOUR OWN DEATH: This will be accepted as an excuse. However, we require at least two weeks notice as it is your duty to train your own replacement.

RESTROOM USE: Entirely too much time is being spent in the restroom. In the future, we will follow the practice of going in alphabetical order. For instance, all employees whose names begin with ''A'' will go from 8:00 to 8:10, employees whose names begin with ''B'' will go from 8:10 to 8:20 and so on. If you are unable to go at your allotted time, it will be necessary to wait until the next day when your turn comes again. In extreme emergencies employees may swap their time with a coworker. Both employees must have supervisors signature in writing, in thisexchange. In addition, there is now a strict 3-minute time limit in the stalls. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper roll will retract, and the stall door will open.

PAYCHECK GUIDE: The following helpful guide has been prepared to help our employees better understand their paychecks:

Item Amount Gross pay $1,222.02 Income tax $244.40 Outgo tax $45.21 State tax $11.61 Interstate tax $61.10 County tax $6.11 City tax $12.22 Rural tax $4.44 Back tax $1.11 Front tax $1.16 Side tax $1.61 Up tax $1.08 Down tax $1.14
Tic-Tics $1.98 Thumbtacks $3.93 Carpet tacks $0.98 Stadium tax $0.69 Flat tax $8.32 Surtax $2.23 Corporate tax $2.60 Parking fee $5.00 F.I.C.A. $81.88 T.G.I.F. Fund $9.95 Life insurance $5.85 Health insurance $16.23 Dental insurance $4.50 Mental insurance $4.33 Disability $2.50 Ability $0.25 Liability $3.41 Coffee $6.85 Coffee Cups $66.51 Floor rental $16.85 Chair rental $0.32 Desk rental $4.32 Union dues $5.85 Cash advance $0.69 Cash retreats $121.35 Overtime $1.26 Under time $54.83 Eastern time $9.00 Central time $8.00 Mountain time $7.00 Pacific time $6.00 Time Out $12.21 Oxygen $10.02 Water $16.54 Heat $51.42 Cool air $26.83 Hot air $20.00 Miscellaneous $113.29 Various $8.01 Sundry $12.09 ------- Net Take Home Pay $0.02

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Have a nice week.
The Management

Im am so pissed I was writing in here and I lost it on accident dam it, so im gonna have to start over again....So Effective immediately we are now taking only half hour lunches God I love my job! benefit cuts, half hour lunches, no internet access, crazy welfare clients! what more can I ask for, Thank god I secretly still have the internet, what else would I do work! I think not! I swear im serioulsy considering moving I am so sick of Stkn there aint shit ever to do everybody walks around with sticks up there asses, fucken acting like there mormans and better than everyone else, oooh I cant go to a bachelorette parties im not into that kinda thing, what your not into men? ooh I dont fart or get my hands dirty or take shits in the bathrooms! Cmon please! I swear people got issues! well I had a red bull todayI think im gonna lose it! So why do things need to be a certain way? when you get married your supposed to have children, call me selfish but shit I still have some partying years in me, I dont wanna get old and have to become a morman and donate all my money to them, it just sucks! I want so much to get out and do something with myslef but theres so many restrictions i should just say fuck it! and do it! Im so tired of dealing with ungrateful welfare clients. Day after day it gets worse and worse, same thing over and over when does it ever stop! The thought of working till I reach 65 sickens me! Why do we have to work to live. And they have all these fucken shows like on E! these stars flaunting there millions at us and all there shit that they have, like they were showing this rap star oooh he had like 5 cars a million dollar house blah blah, and im like who the fuck are these people and who buys there shit? Im mad at the world today. It trips me out how people are such followers. I need to invent something stupid and sell it to dam asses like myself, so I can become a millionaire too. Ok enough of that before I really get mad, so my weekend sucked like usual we stayed home i fell asleep on saturday night wich is really odd, and sunday I stayed home while marco went and watched the game with Jay and Silent Bob. woohoo! Well this weekend im having a surprise bachelorette party for my friend and hopefully everything goes good people say there going to go but you know everybodys a fucken prude! so i'll be by myself with the stripper getting drunk na we'll see how it goes, I cant wait until we go to Vegas.....

Today is wednesday I didnt go to work yesturday I just plain didnt feel like it, I swear its getting harder and harder to get up for work, shit the thought that I have to work for the next 30 years kills me fuck I still have a long way to go, why cant I be the lucky one to win the lotto I think this is a question we all ask ourselves but fuck I swear I have like the worst luck in the world, im just waiting till someting good happens, but until than i'll be here at my sorry ass jjob talking to crazy ass welfare clients. Sad huh! Well my weekend sucked big donkey nuts! i busted my ass all last week by myself, fixing the bathroom before Beto cam down, and he didnt even come and than me and Mark argued all saturday, because he was being a lazy ass not wanting to help me do shit! I love him to death and yeh he does a lot of shit for me but fuck he willnot help out with the house I have to do everything he wont clean for shit, the 15 minute cleaning up the kitchen I asked to do he couldnt do it so he made me hella mad! he sez that its the woman job to do the house stuff I dont know who the fuck taught him that shit but, I for 1 am not a fucken slave all I ask id for a little help, I know he does a lot for me but fuck just 5 minutes if his time is all I ask for. So yeh we didnt end up going to ingrids because we argued, and so my weekend was fucked up we didnt do shit, Sundat night we just went to Renes and kicked it Carlos and Eric were there it was cool the guys and me hung out, the other 2 ladies were inside doing god knows what, but of course no hi or bye or bitch I hate your ass, but than agian whats new, so we hung out smoked, and smoked some C it was cool me and Mark stayed up till 4 the next day it was cool. I felt kinda funny doing it in front of his brother I dont think he knows we do the stuff we do! so I was kinda scared he'd get mad. But oh well right so not much is going on not much ever goes on! I swear I need to get out I feel fucken trapped here im getting so sick of Stockton, I swear i wanna move hella bad, but u know my hang ups. Its making me depressed doing nothing being here all the time. and than theres the job thing fuck its boring, I serioulsy hate being behind a desk all day long I was watching monster garage and they had these ladies working in a garage on cars and stuff and they were cool I need to do something like that, maybe i'll take some classes or something, I swear I mustve been a boy in one of my past lives cuz I hate this girly shit I need to get out and do something else with my life I need to get off my fat ass and do something, What I dont know!Well soon we will be in Las Vegas thank God ! I cannot wait to get outta here so I look forward to that. so ok i better get my ass back to work so until next time....