Today is wednesday I didnt go to work yesturday I just plain didnt feel like it, I swear its getting harder and harder to get up for work, shit the thought that I have to work for the next 30 years kills me fuck I still have a long way to go, why cant I be the lucky one to win the lotto I think this is a question we all ask ourselves but fuck I swear I have like the worst luck in the world, im just waiting till someting good happens, but until than i'll be here at my sorry ass jjob talking to crazy ass welfare clients. Sad huh! Well my weekend sucked big donkey nuts! i busted my ass all last week by myself, fixing the bathroom before Beto cam down, and he didnt even come and than me and Mark argued all saturday, because he was being a lazy ass not wanting to help me do shit! I love him to death and yeh he does a lot of shit for me but fuck he willnot help out with the house I have to do everything he wont clean for shit, the 15 minute cleaning up the kitchen I asked to do he couldnt do it so he made me hella mad! he sez that its the woman job to do the house stuff I dont know who the fuck taught him that shit but, I for 1 am not a fucken slave all I ask id for a little help, I know he does a lot for me but fuck just 5 minutes if his time is all I ask for. So yeh we didnt end up going to ingrids because we argued, and so my weekend was fucked up we didnt do shit, Sundat night we just went to Renes and kicked it Carlos and Eric were there it was cool the guys and me hung out, the other 2 ladies were inside doing god knows what, but of course no hi or bye or bitch I hate your ass, but than agian whats new, so we hung out smoked, and smoked some C it was cool me and Mark stayed up till 4 the next day it was cool. I felt kinda funny doing it in front of his brother I dont think he knows we do the stuff we do! so I was kinda scared he'd get mad. But oh well right so not much is going on not much ever goes on! I swear I need to get out I feel fucken trapped here im getting so sick of Stockton, I swear i wanna move hella bad, but u know my hang ups. Its making me depressed doing nothing being here all the time. and than theres the job thing fuck its boring, I serioulsy hate being behind a desk all day long I was watching monster garage and they had these ladies working in a garage on cars and stuff and they were cool I need to do something like that, maybe i'll take some classes or something, I swear I mustve been a boy in one of my past lives cuz I hate this girly shit I need to get out and do something else with my life I need to get off my fat ass and do something, What I dont know!Well soon we will be in Las Vegas thank God ! I cannot wait to get outta here so I look forward to that. so ok i better get my ass back to work so until next time....