4:50 Almost time to go home I thought id just write a little before i go home, well I was just sitting here listening to my friends talk and all of a sudden I got the overwhelming feeling like I wa gonna pass out a scary De ja vu, thats usually happens when im gonna pass out I got freaked out I didnt know what to do I just sat here breathing sweatin like crazy, I dont know whats happening to me, its problay all the red bull I drink my supervisor would tell me that. But I thank God didnt im ok I dont know what it is but I cant get myself to go to the doctor they'll just tell me the sam ebull shit like last time, but im ok for now, well ive been having these strange feelings about a friend of mine I wont say who, but I had this wierd dream the other day that this person raped me so ever since than Ive been totally creeped out by them, I dont wanna hang out with this person or even talk to them, and I was forcefully talking to this person earlier and this person knows my husband is gonna be gone tonight so they asked me (there calling me as i speak im not answering yikes!) if i wanted to hang out with him, I had to think of something and say I was buisy, but I dont know why im feeling creeped out by this person, wierd vibes!!! I dont know maybe im just trippin. Ok well anyways I had a cool weekend we hung out with the cousins on friday night weve been doing a sex and the city fridays well do the last disk this friday and its gonna be wierd because the last episode is about a gay guy who gets married, and everyone knows hes gay, hmmm well im gonna be on vacation next week so im trying to get things finished up here, I cannot wait I dont even know what were gonna do its our 2 year anniversay next Monday June 9 wow! maybe we'll go to LA or San Diego, TJ i dont know all I know is I need a vacation!!!!