things are going pretty cool, i feel totally good spiritually, my whole issue with feeling like something was missing was because i always felt like i wasnt spiritual enough like God was missing from my life but now i know hes real i feel him around me it feels so good to have God in my life i know he truely exists now.....well things are going good watch something bad happen no i dont want to think that way, things will be good i just know it. well we just got back from Costa Rica it was a nice relaxing vacation i feel bad though i had to lie and say that i was in the crazy hospital everyone was so worried they said but hey im sorry for having to lie but i needed to get away from everything and put my mind at ease, so we had fun we pretty much relaxed drank and ate and swam...we did this cool canopy tour through the rainforest were you hang from tree to tree on a wire it was so cool scary but cool and than i crashed into a tree that hurt, we made some good friends over there Simon and Yesenia they were really nice at first we thought they were the vacationers from hell but they turned out to be really cool .....well i had alot of fun it wasnt really partying like vacation we partied a little bit on the last day i got drunk and had a hangover all the next day when we were leaving yuk!! but i feel good even me and Cammille made up can you belive that she emailed Bianca and said she was sorry so now there friends again wich im glad for her Bianca always took everything to heart me im like ok were friends again the whole fighting thing was stupid and childish and i had to be the bigger one and say sorry she asked me why i said the things i said and i told her the truth, that she hurts my feelings with the way she treats me sometimes and thats the truth they make me feel like im a drug addict crazy person an dthats why they dont to hang out with us...oh well im glad were friends again i just feel bad for them cause they seem so miserable maybe they missed us too???...oh well i think things will be good from now on with my life and everything...thanks God fro coming into my life ...