things are going good for once im happy no worries i love my new house my friends nothing bad has happened knock on wood but for once im really happy, i man yeh theres days when people make me sick its like i try to be nice to everyone and "certain people" always screw me its like what the fuck? im your friend or what? im your relative why do you have to be in competition with me so much all the time ive worked hard for the nice things that i have in my life i came from some hard times in my life and i think im blessed with what i have, but people are always haters, WHY? cant they just be happy for me, why do "they" have to hurt me all the time, just people in jenera i dont know its so hard to trust anyone now adays, i give my heart and people squash it, i guess i know who my true friends are now, and there not??? im talking about Joaquin and Sabrina i just dont understand them he hates me i hate him for what he did, and the funny thing is he started it all, i could have told her everything he was doing butwhat he begged me not to, i could have hurt him the same way he did me, but you know what i dont care, not anymore they took my heart and crushed it and now there all buddy buddy with new people yeh it bothers me when we used to be so close i feel used and abused so now that im having a Halloween Party she;s like "well is it ok if we invite Maggie and Rick"? im like no because its a real strictly friends and family and now there like well Jaoquin wants to go out and Maggie and rick want to hang out that weekend, whatever why did i know that they were going to do that, whatever why do i care so much? oh well right i have my friends that really care, things will never be the same way again...
well weve been so busy working on the house and just things happpening every weekend its like i have something to do all the time.. this past weekend was fun Joe called me about 11:00 on friday and me. him and Lyndall went to Paradise it was pretty fun more fun than i usually have and than his friend Kevin ended up showing Alexis's friend the one that we saw at the club in Vegas, well he's gay actually i was dancing with him and hes like im bi im like heyyyy!!! he is so hot, i was like can i take you home? manajetua woo hoo na but he was cute. anyways i need to hang out with them more..i wish Felicia would have been there it would have been cool anyways gotta go...