Merry un-Birthday to me! Gosh how time flies I remember writing in here last birthday. I am so getting old I just noticed another wrinkle under my eye, I need botox! This birthday is extra bad for me, I turned 27! THE YEAR! I know I sound crazy but I have always seen this year as the year! SO its kinda scary I feel like I need to do things now, I don’t know we’ll just have to see what happens. So we had our first party in our new house it was Marks 30th birthday so we invited everyone over and it turned out cool everyone had a good time I hope, I know I did! And yes of course you know me I got drunk like usual Mark gets mad at me, he sez I act to crazy! When did he notice that? Ive always been crazy!!!!! But he got really mad this time, im not the one his cousin and his wife were just the same! But I know I do get out of control sometime I admit it! But hey its all in good fun! Even though I don’t remember everything, I remember falling on top of the fireplace outside! I burned my hand but It didn’t hurt than haha! Yeh he’s right I do get ooc! I need to calm myself. But it was fun, Beto came down my bro in law my friends from work, and some of his family, they liked our house. We worked so hard to get everything done before than we just got like the hallway to do, you know me I cant stand white walls! It’s just now I can relax and not worry about deadlines. Im getting used to my house now it feels more like im home now, even though I still cant get used to Mark leaving to LA I hate it I cant sleep when hes gone I get paranoid! I don’t know lately ive been feeling better emotionally that is, besides all the funerals we’ve been going to and I just found out my friends sisiter might have breast cancer I swear its like all this bad stuff is happening in the world! War! Its like why cant everybody just be happy why does there have to be so much pain and suffering in this world it gets to me seeing shit on the TV all the time. But besides all that ive just been feeling tired I feel physically drained I don’t sleep good, so im tired all the time I’ve tried taking everything from bad stuff!! To ephedra, red bull blah blah and nothing seem to work I swear I feel like im going to physically fall apart one day I don’t know how much I can take it. My friend went to see this herbal doctor hes Japanese he gave her all these herbal medications to take for energy and stuff, I want to go see him because I feel like im falling apart I have no energy to do anything anymore. Well allrighty gots to get back to work when I take time off its like hell coming back!!!!!!
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