December 15, 2003

Today is going ok earlier we went and volunteered at St Mary’s dining hall it was cool this is the 3rd time ive done it, it makes me feel good going and helping out over there I know I should go and do it more often instead of once a year, but its sad too there’s a lot of people with children that go there its really sad that they have nothing. Well my weekend was boring this whole fricken year has sucked I think because of the whole Chata incident we didn’t really club or do much this year not like last year, well im going to make sure that 2004 will be a better year so we finally are going to do it, were going to buy another house we’ve been thinking about it for a while now and since everything is so cheap and interest rates are low, and we don’t have any kids I figured we do it now so my best friend Beto is going to help us he said he’s help us with closing costs and help us refinance so its scary I was trippin at first “what if we cant find anybody?� “what if we cant afford it� but were going to refinance at 3% and so it’ll bring our mortgage down to 480.00 and so we can rent it out make a profit at renting it at 1100.00 and put the rest on our other house its exciting but scary. Im ready we didn’t really plan on living in or house for too long anyways, just all the work we put into it that’s what kinda sucks but oh well it’ll but fun working on our new house, so Mark sez are you going to be strong enough and yeh I know there’s haters shit my family didn’t even want to come visit us when we first moved in, but oh well I need to do what is right for me now and not worry about what others think im tires of living my life for others, this is my time now and I need to do what is right for me. Hell I never thought id be where I am now I never went to school so I guess I didn’t do so bad, no really I thank god for what I have now and I really don’t think id be where I am now without Mark, he is truly my Angel! Sounds corny huh? But its true. Well Friday we had our X-mas lunch at work we went to Le Bistros it was ok they didn’t have an open bar though so you know Michelle went and got a little something, somethin and we had fun well you know all my drama that ive been having here well my boss called me into his office on Friday and was like I never mentioned her name right I was like no why? Well apparently she went to management and mentioned to them that he had told me it was her and now because of that no one talks to her im like no he didn’t even need to tell me it was her I already new well so now she saying its uncomfortable work environment and blah blah I new this was going to happen but he’s scared now im like im not going to say you told me so don’t be scared well I never told anyone to stop talking to her they did it because they know what kind of person she is well I feel bad for her I really do but I didn’t do it she did it to me. So that’s my drama. Anyways one more week and than I go on vacation I cant believe it than itll be New Years we still don’t even have any plans I guess well just see so until than asta…