Happy Thanksgiving! Boy how that flew by. I had an ok Thanksgiving we went down grandmas first Mark kept rushing me to go down his moms and that was kind of upsetting me because for 2 years we went down his sisters house in San Diego and I had to miss Thanksgiving with my family so the least he could do was kick it with me for a while without complaining you know, but he still was ready to leave, and than when we got there no one was doing anything just sitting there watching TV it was pretty boring usually his family is the more funner one my family just sits there saying nothing but it was cool Fed and Cammille had there sars masks on that was pretty funny they have allergies around my grandmas cat. We used to be so close at a time but now we talk but its not the same they hardly come visit us anymore. They are actually finally getting an apartment after hella long I don’t know how they stayed in his moms house so long id be like we need to get out! But yeh finally there getting there own apartment we’ll see how that goes, you know there always in competition w/ us. So anyways thanksgiving night I wanted to have an after part but no one wanted to do anything its like everybody’s old now and don’t want to do shit anymore what’s up with that? I think I just need to get new friends. Yeh were losers we don’t have any friends, it’s just me Mark and Turbo ive become what I said I wouldn’t! Well anyways my weekend was ok we got up early Friday to go shopping We bought a TV for 99$ two DVD’s for 19.99 each cool huh yeh we shopped like crazy, it was cool I couldn’t believe how many people there was at 6 o clock in the morning. So that night we all kicked it at my house drank it was cool, I miss my homies we don’t hang out as much anymore well of course because they’ve all moved away. Saturday get this shit we went down Marks aunt cuz it was Manuel’s birthday, and we got there kinda early so me, Augie and his uncle Frank all smoked I was trippin it was hella funny I was like oh my god I new he smoked but I never thought id actually smoke with him he was cool about it, he was like everybody does it so I was like ok. Well this is weird and I never thought id say this but I think I actually am ready to start a family everybody kept telling me wait till your older you’ll want one and I was like no no! but im thinking I don’t know if I want one because im lonely or because im really ready and its weird now that I want one, Mark doesn’t ive been having issues he makes me feel like Im not going to be a good mother that’s why he doesn’t want to have one with me. Lately he’s been treating me like im worthless like im not a good wife like he’ll ask me to do something but, will I know your not going to do it. Like he expects me to be a bad wife because im not traditional like some others, I don’t cook, or serve him, or wait on him hand and foot that’s just not me but I sometimes feel like he thinks im not a good wife and that’s why he doesn’t want to have a family w/ me yeh it hurts. So ok thanksgiving flew soon it will be x-mas I cant wait until my vacation, ok gits to go now …..