So I have this problem with women, all my life my women friends have one way or another hurt me or stabbed me in the back and I cant figure out why this always happens to me, I like to think im a nice person, a good friend, I will never criticize you, or tell you your dumb, or do anything to try to willingly hurt you but, I don’t know what it is about me, its not like im hella pretty or hella funny or smart or whatever! but for some reason my friends always have this weird competition thing with me im not one to flaunt my shit around town! so I cant figure out what it is about me. I try hard to be cool with everybody but no matter what I do it’s never good enough! When I was in grade school 2 of my best friends went out of there way to hurt me and still till this I don’t know why? When I got older my best friend tried to take my boyfriend away (which is now my husband) My other best friend for years that I had was always in competion with me to win over my friends, and than I had this other friend here at work we were hella cool w/ each other hung out all the time and so when there was an opening to go to her dept. I did and that’s when things between us got fucked she would always blame things she did on me to make herself look good in front of the boss and make me look like I wouldn’t be do anything, so I cut the cords w/ her! Why do people do this shit to im too fucken nice its my problem! I never say anything! Why am I so stupid I let people run me over and never say anything!, my own cousin does this shit to me like she always has to do things to make herself look better, like when I got married she went out and got a bigger ring than mines because mines was big! She always has to tell me she got a raise or bought an expensive purse and im like what the fuck? good for you! And why doesn’t my soon to be sister in law like me? Because she thinks her man liked me or something happened between us! Why does she dye her hair red when she doesn’t obviously like me? So now heres my issue I have this friend at work, no one likes her right all my other friends tried to warn me about her but no I said “you just don’t understand her” and would always have her back “that’s just how she is” so get this she was getting married and she asked me and my husband to be in her wedding she was getting married in Vegas and was going to pay for our whole trip so I was like cool ok! So she had her little bridle shower no one went I was the only one there. I felt bad for her so at work I threw her a little surprise shower and because I did it everyone went. So I was planning this surprise bachelorette party for her who wouldn’t like that right! She got mad at me saying I told you I didn’t want one! After she looked like she had a good time there! Started tripping off everybody yelling at us going all crazy after everything I had done for her ok! Didn’t once say thank you! Everyone that went to the party told me im going for you not for her! And I still didn’t see it so to make a long story short she fucked me again! the whole competition thing happened because I got a good review at work from my supervisor and she didn’t she started going behind my back telling on me getting me in trouble! My supervisor and me are cool so when he had to write me up for being late he was like “I don’t really mind that you’re a little late sometimes because I know you’re a hard worker, but because someone who you think is your friend went to the manager and told them so I have to” straight up told me to watch my back because the person that I think is my friend isn’t! Ok what the fuck! I kept thinking about it last night and I don’t understand why girls do this shit to me all the time I never would do shit like that to my friends! Why do women feel they always have to be in competition with me its hurts not knowing who you can trust! It got to me last night and I guess that’s why I get along better with gay guys! Funny huh! I don’t know but I just feel more comfortable around them like if we go out, I like going to gay clubs there’s never women trying to show off! Or trying to be better than the next girl! I can’t stand it! I swear since ive sat next to my “so called friend” ive been in trouble twice (I got moved right next to her recently) and I know for sure it aint no one else! I just don’t understand people I used to think I could read people because I was a people watcher, but I don’t understand how people can be that way! So my husband told me something last night and ive learned from it…YOU HAVE TO PLAY THERE GAME! And so I will! No more Mrs. nice girl!