So things are going all right im getting over my post trauma experience barely, im just glad he’s doing better, he doesn’t hate me so that’s good! I just can’t get over the feeling of everything being my fault. Well were still looking for another house, we went house hunting this weekend and we couldn’t find anything, nothing as nice as the one house that I liked on Nottingham, it got sold! I new we should’ve got it! Oh well that’s life, well ive been thinking these past few days we have all this money, more money than ive ever had in my life, and there’s just so many alternatives, there’s so much I could do with my life right now, I figure we don’t have kids! And if I keep putting my life on hold for my parent’s im never going to get anywhere in life and I might as well do something now before we really get old! Well we’ve been looking at all our options making a business, investing in something, even maybe moving to San Francisco, its not as expensive as I thought, 300k for a 1b 1b yeh its a lot smaller but hell wed be living in San Fran, id live in a garage I don’t even care! I don’t know its kind of scary wed have to look for jobs, blah blah! Whose to say wed even be happier there! I just feel like there’s nothing here for me in Stockton! I Hate It here! There’s nothing here for the things I want to do! Who knows I guess ill just go with the flow for now!