I had this weird dream yesterday, I dreamt that I was drowning I can remember jumping into this pool and actually feeling the water succumb me, I can remember just laying at the bottom of the pool waiting for someone to jump in and save me, there were these people standing on the side of the pool doing nothing, after a few minutes they finally jumped in and saved me, so I looked this up in my new dream book Juana gave me and it said that I was drowning of emotional sorrow, yeh I guess im feeling like I cant breathe sometimes its just at work now that we have “Marion “ back, so to speak, its like were all in a fucken prison and you know who we have to blame for that! They might as well chain us to our desks its that bad! well im applying for another job at Delta College doing the same thing just the pay is like 3 times more than what here, I think its time for a change, im never going to get anywhere else here, anyways and I don’t think were ever going to get raises there’s never ever any funding and shit! So well see what happens, anyways I was talking to my friend about my dream I had and she told me something strange, she said “you have a feeling that your going to die young huh?” which is strange, because I do! So Im going to say it, I never like to say it because people will probably think im crazy but here it goes, and my husband gets mad when I say stuff like this, well ever since I was young ive always had this feeling like im going to die young, first of all my mother wasn’t even supposed to have kids, so I wasn’t even supposed to be born, 2nd I had this dream about my past life, I remember everything what I looked like, where I lived, what my house looked like, what my boyfriend looked like,(his name was Edward) I remember being on drugs, and drowning, and remembering what it actually felt like to die, (which is strange because I cant swim, and im afraid of the water) well besides all this ive always had this feeling of 27, for the longest time, scary but last year I swear I kept seeing the numbers 1234 on the clock when I would just happen to look, or phone numbers, anywhere it was like so coincidence I know it sounds crazy, I hope im wrong but its something I feel strong about! I used to work at a women’s facility and one night I had this dream that the grim reaper came to me and told me I was going to die, that morning I kept thinking about it, freaked out! And see it used to be and this other girl whoever got to work earlier went to the post office to pick up the mail and she was always there before me! But that day I got there before she did, so I decided to go and I swear, we worked out in the boonies were there were no cars so I was driving this big truck and I was driving kind of fast because I didn’t see any cars in front of me but the next thing I new im breaking hard because all of a sudden this car comes out of nowhere right in front of me, breaks i break as hard as i could i hit him from behind and I go flying in the field, flew in the back seat because I didn’t have my seat belt on, the key gets jammed in the ignition so I had to jump up an pull the emergency break! Well I remember laying there crying my eyes out thinking to myself I was supposed to die! “im final destination!” so crazy but ever since than yeh im traumatized and I feel like im final destination! Why are we all so afraid to die, we know its going ot one day happen! why is eath such a touchy subject? im not afraid of dying so much what scares me is, what if I dont see my ove dones again? will we remember eachother in the after life?Well as crazy as it sounds I guess ill just have to wait and see what happens, so if im right you’ll see I wasn’t crazy!!!!! so until than.......