something strange happened to me today Betty my mother in law called me and said she loved me and was thinking about me how she was worried about me drinking to much, i was like ok and she told me she loved me, it was wierd, well me and mark got into a argument about me drinking too im not a total drunk or anythinr i havent even gotten drunk i dont understand why theyre so afraid of something happening i feel fine besides bored everyday im trying to keep myself buisy even if it sleeping this has been the only time that i havev been able to sleep, so anyways the wierd thing is mark said that some lady wen tto bettys saying i need to be careful shes some psychic lady saying she can see that i have peoblems it was really wierd she told mark to call her so she can talk to me im cried, i dont know i feel better i just feel lonely bored im ready to go back to work i guess im just scraed still scared of the future whats to become of me? im afraid of everything!!! i just hope whatever this lady has to say isnt what i think it is.....i just want to be happy again is going to be more than a year since all this i want things to be better this year and i hope nothing becomes between me and mark and my drinking just help me god!!!