today is a ugly rainy day the kind of days that make you want to stay home and cuddle up with some you love or a day that makes you feel like like shit eighther one, well things have been actually ok with me besides the few times that i broke down and well u know, but besides that im having alot more energy i even got the balls now to go outopefully on my own to the store walking bycileing, im doing ok i even hopefully will have a new job thanks to sopear doing loans maybe this is my blessing in disguise it just kinda came to me, so i hope thisw is Gods way of saying hey things will get better!! so we'll se how that goes im ready to learn something new. my life in the past few months has just been like a roller coaster uop and down! i dont know what tommarrow will bring but i pray it'll be ok so until than ....