So here am I am just writing as fast as I can because were no longer gonna have internet access at work pretty soon I dont know I guess people like me spend too much time on it, haha but what else am I to do to make the fucken long ass day go by Work?? So not much going on same ole shit you know when you live in a small town like I do there aint ever shit to do accept go to the movies or eat at the same place everyone esle does Applebees or Chilis and laugh at all the stupid white people trying to look cool. So we havnt actually been doing much and im about lose it I need to get outta here, last year we were always in San Fransisco hanging out with the fellas clubbing but I dont know ever since the "incident" in Januray we havent really done shit I dont know why its not like I wanna stop doing drugs, but for some reason I cant get a hold of them every fucken time we wanted to it was like we couldnt get shit like it isnt meant to be I dont know maybe its a way of telling me not to do anything? oh well, its just been so boring! like the same day over and over you know? Well weve been saving money for Maria's wedding next month so thats a good thing were going to Las Vegas I cannot wait so that'll be good a bunch of us from work are going and Maria's paying for our hotel room cool huh? so im planning her a bachelorette party at my house next month that'll be fun so there is tuff going to be happening pretty soon thank God or else I will be dying of boredom in stockton oh and then were finally going up to LA next week to get my shit I cant wait its been there for almost 2 months its gonna look so cool in my room. Ok so enough rambleing about stupid shit, me and Mark have been on this grapefriut diet for 2 weeks, my friend here at work was on it she lost 40 pounds so im hopeing to lose something, I feel a little bit trimmer my stomach isnt popping out as much but I still feel fat! I dont think i'll ever be happy with my body! so whats new, my bro in law moved into his new house its got potential I suppose but its really old nothing in the house has been updated since like 1970 whoever lived there before was really dirty cuz its hella dirty so they have alot of work to on it! so we were there the other day if I say so myself I did put in there front door lock im good Marco didnt even know how to do it, and I didnt get a thank you. My bro in law was saying how he wants to paint it and decorate it and im thinking man she aint got no say in anything because shes wasnt giving any thoughts or anything, if it were me id be like hell no were doing it like this and that, shit not even myhoney had any say in the decorating of my house ok well just a little but still, I dont know she just does everything he tells her which is kinda sad, its wierd I know there gonna get married and all and eventually we'll have to get along but she never talks to me I dont think im that hard to talk to im pretty cool shit I will never judge you or tell you your stupid but I dont know its just wired with us, so im happy for my bro in law and everything and he's all asking so are you guys going to come help us and im thinking in my head hell no! when did you guys help us do shit, NEVER! not for the wedding not when we moved in our house we did everything ourselves I know that sounds bad but thats how it is. Well get this I was looking around there house and I found this book guess what it said "Haunted Houses in California" woe I was looking at it and I dont know why they thought it was mine but I guess they got kinda scared because ther doors kept shutting by themselves, that was wierd, so I left the book and they brought to my house and left in the mailbox I was like why did they do that? they thought it was mine I was like yeh right like id really take that over there so I guess they got scared i was like great bring your ghosts over here. na but I had this dream that there house was haunted and that they found muddy foot steps all on the floor wierd huh! so ok thats it thats all I have to say so hopefully next time itll be more interesting and who knows when ill be able to write again if they take my lovely internet access away so until than keep on trucking hahah!