October 6, 2003
IM BACK HERE AGAIN ONCE MORE WISHING I WASN’T, IM FEELING A LITTLE IRRITATED FOR SOME REASON, I ALMOST SNAPPED AT THE LITTLE CRIPPLED LADY, “ARE YOU TELLING OUR CLIENTS INTAKE? OR ORIENTATION? BECAUSE BLAH BLAH! WHO THE FUCK CARES! DOES IT REALLY MATTER THAT YOU’RE NOT DOING YOUR JOB, AND TRYING TO BLAME IT ON ME. I LEARNED SOMETHING THIS WEEKEND THERE ARE TWO DIFFERENT TYPE OF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD ME AND EVERYONE ELSE I NEVER REALLY REALIZED HOW CLOSED MINDED PEOPLE ARE, SEE I HAVE THIS WAY OF THINKING, VERY OPEN MINDED ABOUT THINGS, CARE FREE ABOUT PEOPLE AND THERE WAYS, BUT I NEVER REALIZED THAT NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE ME, PEOPLE ARE DIFFICULT NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO HELP SOMEONE, BE FRIENDLY OR WANT CARE, TEACH THEM SOMETHING NEW, PEOPLE JUST DON’T GIVE A FUCK AND WILL DO ANYTHING TO BACK STAB YOU, MAKE YOU THINK THERE RIGHT! AND YOUR WRONG, OR SIMPLY TALK SHIT ABOUT YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK WHILE THE SAME TIME THEY’RE PRETENDING TO BE YOUR FRIEND IN YOUR FACE! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO THERES ALWAYS GOING TO BE SOMEONE THAT’S GOING TO BRING YOU DOWN, NO MATTER HOW FRIENDLY OR NICE YOU ARE. THERES ALWAYS GOING TO BE THE HARD HEADED ASSHOLES OF THE WORLD! SO WATCH OUT NO MORE MRS. NICE GIRL! PEOPLE WILL NEVER LEARN.
SO BESIDES ALL THE BULL SHIT LIFE BROUGHT ME THIS WEEKEND IT ACTUALLY TURNED OUT PRETTY OK, FRIDAY MY FAMILY CAME OVER ATE DINNER, AND WATCHED “FREDA” MY GRANDMA REALLY LIKED IT, THAT MOVIE GETS ME EVERYTIME MAKES ME WANT TO DRINK TEQUILA! AND PAINT AGAIN. SATURDAY WAS MY BRO-IN-LAWS HOUSE WARMING PARTY, IT WENT OK, I HAD FUN, EVEN THOUGH I LIKE TO MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF BECAUSE I REALLY DON’T GIVE A FUCK! IM HAVING A GOOD TIME AND IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT TOO MUTHA FUCKEN BADD! YEH THERES A LOT OF PEOPLE OUT THERE TRYING TO BE TOO COOL TO ENJOY LIFE, LIKE FOR EXAMPLE THERE WERE THESE GUYS IN A CORNER, DANCING BY THEMSELVES SO I WENT OVER THERE HAD TO BUST A FEW OF MY MOVES AND THERE STILL HIDING WITH EACHOTHER, WHEN THE WHOLE TIME THERES PRETTY GIRLS DANCING BY THEMSELFVES, I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE MALE SPECIES. SO IM BEGINING TO THINK EVERYONES IN A CONSPIRACY AGAINST ME HAHA IM BEING CRAZY BUT SHIT I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE NO MATTER HOW FUCKEN NICE I AM PEOPLE ARE STILL ASSHOLES TOWARD ME. I DON’T KNOW JOELS RIGHT YOU GOTTA WATCH WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE. WELL IT WAS COOL I THINK PEOPLE HOLD IN WHO THEY REALLY ARE TOO MUCH, ME IM JUST ME I DON’T TRY TO HIDE WHO I AM FROM ANYBODY, WE ALL NEED TO LIGHTEN UP A LITTLE AND MAYBE WE’D ENJOY LIFE A LITTLE MORE. WELL GUESS WHO WAS THERE, YES SARAH! IF THERES ONE PERSON I CAN’T STAND ITS HER JUST BECAUSE! YEH SHES SKINNY NOW SO WHAT! SHES STILL A BITCH! IM WONDERING IF SHES RELATED TO LUNCHBOX, SHE ALWAYS SEEMS TO BE AROUND WHEN THEY HAVE FAMILY FUNCTIONS, SO IT MUST RUN IN THE FAMILY! HMMMM
SUNDAY MARKS FAMILY AND I ALL WENT TO THE PUMPKIN PATCH IT WAS FUN, SO HIS DAD IS OPENING UP A LITTLE MORE TO ME THESE DAYS, I STILL THINK HE DON’T LIKE ME BECAUSE IM NOT MEXICAN ENOUGH BUT HES BEEN COOL LATELY, WE HAD FUN WITH HIS AUNT AND UNCLE AND AUGIES 2 KIDS, HAUNTED HOUSE, HAY RIDE, TRAIN IN THE CORN FIELD. NOT TOO BAD. WELL THIS WEEKEND SHOULD BE COOL IM TAKING A 3 DAY WEEKEND TO GET THE HELL AWAY FROM HERE AND BECAUSE BETO AND THEM ARE COMING DOWN SO IM SURE WE’LL HAVE FUN, SO UNTIL THAN…..