So last night me and some coworkers went out to celebrate one of our friends birthdays, we ended up going to dinner and than after to have drinks, it was actally fun Ive been trying to get them to all to go out for a long time but there always so sqaure and dont ever want to do shit, but they are actullay starting to open up now, I see a change in all of them, ever since Ive been back at work things with everyone has changed with Ale, with Claude, ever since Claude was introduced to Who'sHere i see a chnage in her she's more open to things to meeting people, at work all she does is chat its pretty funny I think she's starting to see what the real world is about all the dirty naughty things that are in this world, but im happy for her she's finally coming out of her shell. I can tell her self esteem is getting better she dresses up now she curls her hair wears makeup and everything. So last night we all had an awesome time laughing and cracking jokes Ale was even having a good time, I dont think she's laughed like that in a long time, I dont think any of us have. Maybe me getting sick did have a purpose, it changed all the relationships that ive had with people, with my friends, with my family, with my husband and I, Its made us all see things different, maybe I was the ticket for everyone to make a change in there life, and not take for granted what we have. At work it brought us all back together again, all the crap that had happened in the past between us all, is gone now, were all friends again, maybe not like we used to be, but at leaste we can all laugh together again. And that makes me happy, even though I still feel lost and confused it matters to me that I at leaste made a diiference in the lives of the people around me. So anyways we all had a few drinks and after a while the gang left and I called Mark to pick us up cause Claude couldn't drive and yes she actually drank I was in shock along with everyone else, but she was having a good time and thats all that mattered, see Claude is one of my religious to the core friends, she doesnt understand gay people or approve of there life style, she attends church on an everyday bases and prays religiously!! she's closed minded to a lot of things but is now starting to see the world as it really is, and yes I had to be the one to show it to her, why am I such a corrupter! I always tend to have this crazy affect on people and when there around me they tend to do things they originally woulldnt do, hmmmmm and not always is that a good thing. Well we ended up taking her to Paradise a gay bar of course and Maria and I wanted to just go to dance, Claudia was a little tripped out at first she kept saying how she didnt know any of that kind of stuff existed, and I was like "honey you have a lot to learn" but she was ok we danced and I made friends like I usually do, we had fun I think she was a little tripped out after a while cause Maria and I got a little crazy so we ended up going home, Maria ended up staying at the house and I passed out after incredible ....All in all it was a good night....