My mind keeps going and going thinking about all the stupid things ive done im my life, my consious is killing me! I feel so stupid to have believed all the stupid crap that people have said and have tried to make me believe...maybe I said all the wrong things too, What is wrong with me? Why do I keep making the same mistakes over and over again? Why cant I stop? I feel like such a horrible person! All the shit that I have done in my life, I dont understand why I keep doing this to myself JUST STOP ALREADY!!!!
But I cant! I dont want too! But I do! My mind is saying no but my body says yes! and my heart doesnt know anymore! I feeel so confused with everything, I dont know where I want this life of mines to go anymore, theres so much more I want to do that im confused I dont want to hurt him anymore, I dont want to hurt myself anymore, I just wish things were different, I wish I could go back in time and change it all. These feelings that I have, these thoughts that I have, they haunt me, but yet I dont learn.