June 24, 2004
Today is my last day here at work, were moving tomorrow to our new shitty ass, crack whore, disease infested home by the train racks, yep my job was to fucken cheap to pay our rent here after being here for almost 20 years, so now they’re like were just going to have move you all to a little corner whole in the wall in shit land! This so sucks big time! I don’t want to move I like it here, I have my friends here, no more George and Karla, im sooo sad! And yeh even no more Andy! Its going to be so weird not seeing them everyday. I’m used to them, we’ve been together for almost 31/2 years, ive grown close to them, if it weren’t for me, George would have never came out of the closet or in his case we wouldn’t have thrown him out! And Karla I made a good friend, even though she’s flaky and goofy! She was the only one who befriended me in the beginning; we clicked like we had known each other forever. So now im forced to hang out with Michelle when she decides to come to work. I like her don’t get me wrong but its not going to be the same. Things will be weird. And of course no more Joel by boss! My savior! He guided me into the light haha! But he did, he taught me a lot! Even though we didn’t agree on lot of things. It sucks that he’s not going with us, hes the one that brought intake to life and showed me everything. Now we have some new lady who thinks her shit don’t smell like booboo, she thinks Intake is gong to be a piece of cake, but little does she know that it’s a whole cake and than some. So today is sad, lunch time was weird, we just sat there like we didn’t know what to say to each other, it was awkward, but I know they’re going to miss me, just like I’ll miss them.
Well I had my first client yesterday im finally a caseworker which means I have to keep my own cases now. It’s difficult but not unbearable. I swear sometimes I feel like Tye in Clueless im like huh?????? Im just glad my friend went with me yesterday or else I would’ve been screwed, and lost! But we’ll see how it goes before I start looking for another job…. Well im almost over dosed yesterday no kidding ive been taking some medication I got off the internet, sleeping medicine because I have insomnia!!! I thought Id try it, its been all over the TV. So it works! The only thing that actually works for me, and ive tried everything, believe me, Vicodin, Tylenol PM, stuff!!!... and so I was reading the label on the side effects, and it said all this shit like blurred vision, sleepiness, blah blah and than it said if you overdose you might not wake up im like ok. So I took one last night and I swear I think I was over dosing, I took it with something else which I shouldn’t have done and I swear I couldn’t even stand up I was falling all over the place. I was seeing 3 of everything, I was trippin big time and than I passed out! Scary! so no more taking it with other stuff, I don’t learn im surprised I haven’t killed myself yet, I know I say it like nothing, I love life but I got issues! I swear my body is so messed up, I need shit to keep me up and go to sleep. What am I going to do? whelp I have so much to do still its not even funny were moving and I refuse to leave so I haven t even packed up all my shit, sooooo until next time I better get back to work…..