Goodmorning nothing much going on on this end just looking forward to the 3 day weekend so much going on this weekend party aftert party, so ok I had this awful dream last night, here it goes I was dreaming that I was going to some classes like acting classes or something and there was this guy who kept looking at me I new him but couldnt remember who he was and in my dream I new I was dreaming like I was having an out of body experience like im looking at myself sleeping so anyways, in my dream im sleeping and im dreaming that im walking down this long hall way and there's doors on each side of the hall and I go into every room and I see all these things that have happen to me when I was a kid like they were old memoris hidden in side of me locked up behind doors, and I start freaking out because all the awful memories are just flashing before my eyes, like in a movie. So in the morning im driving down the street with my family and I start to lose it like I go crazy because I start to remember who he and there trying to calm me down but im crying hysterical I go home and look at this old picture that I have of him and its him but looks different so I go to my classes hes there looking at me strange and I go to my teacher and tell her that Im not going to be going there anymore and she asks me why and im crying telling her why and I beg her to please dont say anything but she doesnt listen to me she goes up to him and starts talking to him and he starts to look at me crazy and I start to run and hide and he's chasing me like hes going to hurt me but he doesnt find me. All this time I keep hearing his name Its Leonard, but I dont know any Leonard, I know who he is his real name is Ramon. I dont know it ends there him chasing me and I wake up freaked out because I have all these memories now, I can remember everything he did to me I started crying I dont know its wierd I feel sometimes like im going to lose my mind. I went down my moms house the other day and Tommy was there I tripped out my dad was like you remember Tommy right I wanted to run the fuck out of there I didnt know what to do I was like uuuuhh yeh and took off It pisses me off like why do they still talk to him I dont understand? I know they probley dont know any better but why? I dont know I have all these past memories haunting me and there just there I cant forget and now more than ever I cant forget im like haunted by my own memories what do I do? maybe I need to see a counselor? I did when I was young I had alot of issues with my parents, the past im confused.
Well on another note I got in a car accident yesturday yes my stupid shoe slipped off the break and accidentally rolled into the car in front of me im so stupid and to top it off the lady was hella ghetto trying to say I cracked her the top of her car my car didnt even hit her there it wasnt that bad i just barely knicked her so thats my drama to crazy. Welp gots to get back to work so off I go.